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Our current relationship status doesn’t guarantee us happiness or happily ever after. The status has to be lived in real time. Many of us are in relationships acting as if we’re single at selective moments. And many of us are single… pretending to be attached also at selective moments. And many of us are simply in undefined relationships…playing it by the other persons level of contact…or mood…or how much sex we can get or make ourselves available for…under the guise that this is what an exclusive relationship is.
I’m not saying two people have to sit each others feelings or constantly define their union. What I’m am saying, is that it’s OK to spend time with the people you like to spend time with too…away from the definitions and labels. It’s ok to be an adult in your own happiness, which may include openly seeing multiple people, while dating one person. Until you and that person discuss being more to each other, and define concrete purpose to each other, you are free to enjoy your time with other adults.

Some days ago I ran into a male associate whom I hadn’t seen in some years. During our quick catch-up he asked if I were seeing anyone. I said yes…long distance. He chuckled, reached in his suit breast pocket and handed me his business card. He told me to call him when I’m free for lunch or dinner and drinks. And he moved on…eye-ing me in the face. Now had he said that first, then handed his card I more than likely wouldn’t have taken it. But still, did he not respect what I just informed him? He didn’t give me a chance to deny him. But that doesn’t mean he had sinister motive either. I still exist with my own mind and purposes…but I wondered still. What if I hadn’t said long distance? 
Recently, I’ve also observed that when I tell people I’m dating long distance…it reflects back as sorrowful or desperate. “Oh that must be hard for youuu.”…or…”How often do you see each other??”…or…”You’re not worried about him cheating?…you know he cheatin right?”…or “Wow there’s plenty of men here who would definitely date you…what made you go long distance?” I mean they wanna know everything! I have no answers. If anything…I’m left with questioning myself. It’s not like all the world knows and I just have to suck it up. But when I’m invited to events and I RSVP for one…or show as a single in a place full of adults…it just feels awkward. Few people know the details of this long distance thing…but even they seem to “forget” I’m dating someone, and regularly attempt to connect me to sorts of men. 


It’s OK to want and even need definitions and labels. Your relationship isn’t for other people. But neither does it have to be a secret or undefined to the people around you. If you commit yourself to someone make sure you’re dating that person regularly and they’re committed to you, and all intents and purposes are absolute clear. You don’t want to look like a fool at any point should you be the more lovey dovey partner and want to be openly affectionate, whether online or in real life. There’s nothing more embarrassing than being publicly rejected, or to be subjected to watch other people openly flirt with your partner as if you aren’t there. Which means either they really don’t know about you or they don’t care…because your partner hasn’t created clear and concrete boundaries. People treat you how your partner speaks of you…if at all.

Annnd lastly, it’s absolutely OK to ‘not date’ or have any type of relationship with someone if you don’t see a future with them or cannot define absolute exclusivity — whether til tomorrow or years from today.

​​There are absolute stressful and despairing moments during soul clearing in which you’re grappling at the external environment because some shit you don’t need (but thought you needed) is being taken from you. It’s almost primitive behavior in which you fight so hard to rationalize this need to stay in a cave as the water is raising higher…knowing you can’t swim. 
That’s that system fragmentation I often talk about.



You don’t want to entertain the thought of leaving…not to find safer ground…but JUST THE THOUGHT OF NOT KNOWING IF THERE *IS* SAFER GROUND. This is evidence that you are still in your own mind, to NOT THINK AND KNOW THAT WHERE YOU ARE, CAN AND WILL KILL YOU. If you don’t know and don’t want to let go–get out–while you can WALK. 
This ain’t no bag of cookies and makeup. This is sweat and swear work!



SOUL CLEARING will pull you OUT your own mind and uncover the FIRST mind. It is not a new mind..it is the FIRST thought and it will reshape your mind back into and of itself. So not only will you be removed from the cave, there is a twinkling moment (I call it the voice/hand of god), in which you will find yourself in a completely different location. 
This process will happen several times throughout your lifetime. 



This is my third wave…but I’ve done multiple simulations…I swear I’m going to “drown”…but my follow through is getting better. One time I just kept falling and was reaching for anything…but there was nothingness closing in…then it became so cold…there was some fear…I couldn’t speak…so I spoke in my mind to be released…and I felt the whishing of being pulled up. Yeah…I wasn’t so sure about that one…that wasn’t me. 
So anyway…what’s the purpose of it all…? 



I wish I knew..but if you have to go to school you may as well learn the lessons…and be damn good at them!
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I feel so good this morning….I was guiding all night. A thing about being interdimensional is…not every great or good (and certainly we don’t want the bad ones) “dream” is meant to be manifested onto the third dimension. There are aspects of ourselves that the current frequencies on external earth cannot and do not relate to, understand, or appreciate. Even sharing stories of our experiences sound “unbelievable”. They call it alien. Meanwhile we are “requested” to work in other dimensions. Interdimensinal workers, universal workers, dream workers, several names are called by.

The irony is humans ask God for help…BUT because help does not show up in saviour suits, they think help does not arrive. We can help ourselves and each other…but the thinking is “we look too much alike, how can you help me and we’re in the same place. Only certain people have the RIGHT to help me.” Whoa.

We are different titles in different frequencies (worlds)…multiple aspects of ourselves living and being concurrent to our present consciousness. Past present and future. External earth is no different, requests/prayers/desires are made…humans do not follow through however. They find other things to compensate for lack of something else. Earth is a difficult project..truthfully speaking. A lot of us feel that way.

If you have a “dream” and you remember it when you awaken from your sleep and you think it’ll be uplifting to self and/or others…and you have the tools to make it BEcome truth in 3D…do it! But not all “dreams” are meant to manifest into your current conscious world.

And it doesn’t have to be a grand scheme; I saw some gorgeous vivid blue skies and waters in other worlds. I search for the blue via cloth in stores and could not find such a color. So I went to the fabric store and found cloth a close to the heaven blue I could see. I made curtains…so I can wake up in “heaven or haven”. Simple changes that bring about upliftment in our spirits and beings and that closely match our spirit home worlds.

Some beings come from warring worlds…and they brought it here with them…and continue to manifest more of themselves. Unfortunately. BUT it’s a part of the program…many of us try to bypass those parts without getting caught up in them.

In some instances we experience dejavu. This is because there are traits that run across every aspect of ourselves…who we are. That famous line, “It runs in my blood (ancestral blood).” is true. The dejavu helps us to keep in close to our true blood as universally possible. For instance, a Seer. A Seer has always been, IS, and will be a Seer.

In 5th dimension frequencies and above the Seer is consciously in his/her role. In 4th and higher 3rd dimension frequencies (right above the earth), the Seer is semi-conscious or unconscious in his/her role…until they tune into their higher selves (or are tuned into)via meditation and/sleep states/quickening.

The more dejavu we have, the closer we are to our truth. In the experience of the dejavu..we have the ability to change a path…from where we are to where we’re suppose to be. It’s like switching the rail over to a different track..so the train can change routes. The timelines are the tracks and you are the train. Make stops along the way…tune up…bring into your life what benefits the whole…let go of dead weight…know your purpose…or develop one, or two.

In order for the dejavu switch to happen, the person has to be aware of both timelines…where you are and a short glimpse of where you’re suppose to be. Some persons are sensitive to portal locations, and are more likely to “run into themselves” when in vicinity of portals. We mainly use dejavu for corrective work…though some call it a “second chance”.

The fact that we have to “force” ourselves to go to one extreme to get away from another(usually positive to get away from negative) is a reality of BEing human. However because humans must always put a word to a BEing or feeling or emotion….going from one emotional extreme to another is considered “Bi-polar”. Which is also considered a problem of the psyche(mind). I can agree going from one pole to another can be called BI-polar. However I have to touch the so-called “mind disorder” part.

Human concepts of nature’s (perceived) dualities are female/male, life/death, healthy/sick, body/spirit, light/dark, white/black, energy/mass, above/below, in/out, love/hate, good/evil, hot/cold.

Are such mentioned above not absolute, or at least extreme opposites?

Often we hear some people say they’re “good” and that’s it. Ask them what makes them good and they’ll point out evil beings. Or tell so-called “evil” people that they’re evil and they’ll tell you they’re the best thing that happened since sliced bread…because everyone else is being “fake”.

Why do we have to pretend to be happy when we’re feeling depressed (which is supposedly a range of feelings outside of happiness)?

Why can’t we figure out what is depressing us and work our way back to happiness, or at least, balanced contentment?

Life demands (work, family, relationships, friends) donot give us a chance to dwell on our individual dis-eases and wellnesses. So instead of addressing why we might be angry or sad about something…we “suck it up” and put on a surface smile…sometimes a whole act.

And we do put on a “good” act for so long amount of time…until we either breakdown or secretly indulge in vices, or even go deeper into depressive states. I’d say the more we pretend, the deeper or more severe our depression.

All humans are bi-polar. All humans go from one extreme BEing to the opposite BEing. Very few give themselves the opportunity to examine their internal feelings and emotions. So really are they BEing true on the surface?

Humans fear the very beings they judge…and they judge what they fear. They’re afraid someone/s will look upon them as “crazy” if they should express any feeling or emotion other than extremely happy.

To pretend to be one way as a dual being can cause mind disorders of soughts….and possibly manifest into unhealthy unbalanced states of beings.

Whereas, in a bi-polar person when you feel good(positive) you acknowledge your feelings and dwell in being and doing things in a state of a highly active and sunny disposition. And when you feel bad(negative) you acknowledge your feelings and dwell in being and doing things in a depressed slowed state.

And because the “average” person is actually unbalanced and/or pretentious, seeing someone smile (which does not reflect the unbalanced persons current state) brings the unbalanced person to ask a question, “What’s wrong with you, why are you smiling?” Then seeing that same person another time in an angry state, the unbalanced person immediately says, “He/she crazy! He/she must be bi-polar! They was just happy the other day!” (As if its a bad thing).

Does going out on a shopping spree with a smile on your face mean you’re bipolar? Or happily shopping? Or do you just like shopping? Are rich people bipolar for buying expensive things?

Does laying in your bed crying mean you’re bipolar? Or crying through your feelings while laying in your bed? Does sitting in a park and crying make you less or more bipolar? Or would it make others uncomfortable to see you crying?

Does having sex with different people mean you’re bipolar? Or does it mean you may be freely living? Or promiscuous? Or single so you can do what you want? Or just nasty?

Does yelling and cursing mean you’re bipolar? Or that you’re angry? Are you feeling misunderstood? Having difficulty expressing in higher way?

Does being very happy yesterday then very sad today mean you’re bipolar? Or could situations, circumstances, conditions have changed for you in that amount of time? Or Could you be ok with expressing your feelings and be done with them and move on?

I can go into weather, Earth, universe…and point out various aspects of polarity systems. But I’ll stop here for now…and keep it the mind. For now.

Feel free to ask question, critique, ASSIST, give clarity to your knowledge….your experience helps. 6/25/14 11:11pm

Human BEings that believe that the third dimension is the only dimension suffer from the illusion of separation from Spirit. Their senses cannot detect any thing beyond physical matter…Spirit is beyond physical.

I say “suffer” because until one experiences their awakened spirit…they wear a false hood of Bliss. The hood is often called “Ignorance”. If you are ignoring truth on purpose, by staying in a false sense of bliss…imagine what true bliss IS! You cannot…because you are ignorant…by choice.

We cannot be one with others if we are not one with Spirit. And if we are not one with Spirit, then 3D is all we think. Spirit has the ethereal ability to flow in and through all of life. We have the ability to awaken others by simply sharing our own experiences. The clearing work however, is to be done by each of us individually. Often people are deterred by the thought of how much denseness they have to clear within themselves…I for one can say, I was not as evil or damned as others judged me to be. I will soon describe some of what clearing work is…in specific BEings.

Spirit is not confined to the flesh, the material plane. Even being in such a dense dimension, speaking externally, we experience beauty. And because we do, then we know behind the veil is LOVE–an all loving uni-verse.

Aside from people who initiate themselves into mystery schools from raw desire states of beings, there are many people who ingest psyche substances who speak of patterns and colors beyond describable words…they FEEL a “beautiful universe…a loving universe as a ONE.”

Though ingesting substances (which comes with its own set of drawbacks) causes a temporary “trip”, nevertheless those users’ experiences are valid, in a sense.

Aftermath

I had a “dream” in the night where me and some people showed up in some place that looked like an institution and then people started dying in the building…it turned into some kind of traphouse and we had to avoid being killed. I kept trying to help people but they were frozen in fear or would run off in some other direction. Only I and another person made it out..but he wouldn’t step over the bar that had begun to come out of the ground…I saw a green truck in front of me..it had metal boxes inside..I was going to open one but something told me stay away…and then we looked up and there appeared a group of people atop a floating building (ship?). A woman pointed for us to look behind us….and I turned around…all I saw was a city burning. She said because people battled each other instead of working together, they were all lost. I was beamed onto the ship(?) with the people and we were in a town. I had to use the bathroom and entered what looked like a dunkin donuts and there was a big water pool area where some people had just had a party like them TV pool parties. I felt slighty funny in my spine and I asked a women if we were on Earth…she asked me where do you think you are I asked her again and she patted my shoulder smiled and told me to enjoy and walked off. 6/22/14

The Void

I dream last night that I was shown a book that speaks of the Void and how if we “wait” too long for those good things we desire ie husband, wife, job, etc.. than we are bound get caught up in life loops. We are more likely to engage in lower behaviors we overcame or uplifted away from. We are to enjoy our lives consciously and live responsibly..always remember God is the all in our lives and is to be respected. 11/21/13