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​​I’ve learned to invest in my own ideas, my own thoughts, my own feelings. I’ve had so many businesses…I can count way pass ten digits. NOTHING but users and abusers and naysayers around me…or people who wanted to change my ideas…or decide what their idea of support is, which was usually the opposite of what I asked, if at all. We automatically think because we have a product, that the greatest thing someone can do for us is buy the product. But then what?

If you all are not aware, on new years eve, a celeb felt of good cheer and sent out a message of monetary support to fans who shared their need of funds for various reasonings. 

There was one woman who asked for “people support”. In other words, she asked to be connected to supportive people vs giving her the money. The celeb in turn asked how much money she needed, she settled on $5000, and made it known that she would preferred the people support, the tone sounded disappointed. 

I thought to myself, why not just give her the “people support”, maybe she has money, “people support” would help her elevate her business. That sucks.

If you’ve been in my home, you’ve seen several paintings on my walls and have commented however you felt about them. In asking who the artist was…you eventually found out it was me. I have been offered money for them and commissioned to paint for others. I’ve refused it all. 

Recently a very good friend of mine, mentioned that the paintings are just sitting there three years now, when they should be shared with the world. I never thought of that. I consider these paintings as stages in my life. He noted that they aren’t stages, they are who I am, and that other people would be able to relate when they see the paintings…and would buy prints for their living rooms and offices, and cards and other merchandise. 

Then he said, “You want to sell a successful product, make it personal. Don’t sell a t-shirt if it isn’t personal. Sell hair products that you use yourself, and definitely do not sell makeup, because you don’t even wear makeup…maybe lip color. Like you sell your perfumes and body oils; if it smells like your father, you can still share that. Personality sells. Share your personality! You are a multi-millionaire and haven’t collected your check, because you’re hoarding your most profitable product. You. YOU are creative if ever I seen a woman create. If you say it smells like Heaven, share that! You’ve written in other people’s names for so long, put YOUR name on the books! Put out the products you create…even if it is just one at a time. You have a house full of products; every time I come here you’ve created something new, and you explain their existence very well from wherever you travelled in your sleep, but share them with the people. Personality sells! You don’t have to have a gimmick..be yourself. How many people have you supported and the product was no good or those people knew you until you bought their products, then they didn’t know you anymore. Those are gimmicks. Those people don’t last. Sell longevity and impact more than temporary and trendy. In the meantime, I’m going to support you by paying for three trademarks, you decide which three and let me know in 30 days.”

That was the best support I’ve had in many years. Not the buying of the trademarks…the ASSESSMENT. The DISCUSSION. And my friend and I have disagreements every so often! But the truth is the truth and he came through with prime support! People tend to void disagreements with me…directly with me anyway. I tend to speak up…as I assume friends disagree, talk about it, and then move forward. But instead of doing that, they ignore me, and tell everyone around them, ask strangers who don’t know me for the answer, they write subposts, they don’t respond to my texts or calls, or they simply stop engaging with me. And that says a lot to me. Lack of respect, or that I’m not worth their time. Which contradicts their supposedly interest in having a friendship in the first place. Friends disagree. So therefore how can I support a person that doesn’t even want to talk to me just because I may disagree with something? I’ve gotten rid of my phone number…no need for it. 

Last night, I dreamed a Crone told me that my (omit) left me some money when she died, and the Crone offered to help me find the money. However the Crone lead me on a dark path that was littered with accidents, and people I thought I was cool with were walking around in the dark. The Crone hit one of them with her car(a baby blue Cadillac 1970ish) like the person was a rag doll. I thought me and that person was cordial..even shared some stories…but who knew. Envy isn’t always blunt. And there was nothing but storm after storm. I decided it wasn’t worth getting that money if I had to go through such a dark energy, and she tried to give me hell. I couldn’t tell if she was trying to help me or hurt me. So I decided to close that book and changed dreams for something more inspirational.

I’m looking at CONFLICT differently. I think people approach us with personal interests of friendship, and their own intentions of which we are not often aware; and when we don’t go along or support something, we’re a problem, and they begin to stay away or just in the edge for a while. However, in us thinking something is wrong with us, God done in the meantime blocked their access to you, but you don’t know that, because what you hear when you reach out is “I’ve been busy.” You further pull up thoughts of nobody is that busy that they can’t make time to say hi or whatever. But the truth is they ARE busy. And it’s not about you, it’s about them. 

Again if you have a disagreement with someone and they choose to ignore you rather than address it, stop reaching out. No everyone can handle conflict or see their way through, some can and choose not to conflict with you, and ultimately, people have every right to consciously cut off access and engage with those who will agree with their intentions without conflict to themselves. Let’s not get back into sacrifices. Just don’t sacrifice your own well-being and fool yourself into thinking you’re being SUPPORTIVE.

I woke this morning and the last words I heard coming out of sleep this morning was, “Keep failing until you succeed.” I felt like that was a good start to the next three years. I am a multi-millionaire. I know that. I just never admitted it and committed it to myself. And it’s ok. I am supporting myself and all my dreams, intents and purposes. You know, self empowerment.


Our current relationship status doesn’t guarantee us happiness or happily ever after. The status has to be lived in real time. Many of us are in relationships acting as if we’re single at selective moments. And many of us are single… pretending to be attached also at selective moments. And many of us are simply in undefined relationships…playing it by the other persons level of contact…or mood…or how much sex we can get or make ourselves available for…under the guise that this is what an exclusive relationship is.
I’m not saying two people have to sit each others feelings or constantly define their union. What I’m am saying, is that it’s OK to spend time with the people you like to spend time with too…away from the definitions and labels. It’s ok to be an adult in your own happiness, which may include openly seeing multiple people, while dating one person. Until you and that person discuss being more to each other, and define concrete purpose to each other, you are free to enjoy your time with other adults.

Some days ago I ran into a male associate whom I hadn’t seen in some years. During our quick catch-up he asked if I were seeing anyone. I said yes…long distance. He chuckled, reached in his suit breast pocket and handed me his business card. He told me to call him when I’m free for lunch or dinner and drinks. And he moved on…eye-ing me in the face. Now had he said that first, then handed his card I more than likely wouldn’t have taken it. But still, did he not respect what I just informed him? He didn’t give me a chance to deny him. But that doesn’t mean he had sinister motive either. I still exist with my own mind and purposes…but I wondered still. What if I hadn’t said long distance? 
Recently, I’ve also observed that when I tell people I’m dating long distance…it reflects back as sorrowful or desperate. “Oh that must be hard for youuu.”…or…”How often do you see each other??”…or…”You’re not worried about him cheating?…you know he cheatin right?”…or “Wow there’s plenty of men here who would definitely date you…what made you go long distance?” I mean they wanna know everything! I have no answers. If anything…I’m left with questioning myself. It’s not like all the world knows and I just have to suck it up. But when I’m invited to events and I RSVP for one…or show as a single in a place full of adults…it just feels awkward. Few people know the details of this long distance thing…but even they seem to “forget” I’m dating someone, and regularly attempt to connect me to sorts of men. 


It’s OK to want and even need definitions and labels. Your relationship isn’t for other people. But neither does it have to be a secret or undefined to the people around you. If you commit yourself to someone make sure you’re dating that person regularly and they’re committed to you, and all intents and purposes are absolute clear. You don’t want to look like a fool at any point should you be the more lovey dovey partner and want to be openly affectionate, whether online or in real life. There’s nothing more embarrassing than being publicly rejected, or to be subjected to watch other people openly flirt with your partner as if you aren’t there. Which means either they really don’t know about you or they don’t care…because your partner hasn’t created clear and concrete boundaries. People treat you how your partner speaks of you…if at all.

Annnd lastly, it’s absolutely OK to ‘not date’ or have any type of relationship with someone if you don’t see a future with them or cannot define absolute exclusivity — whether til tomorrow or years from today.

​​There are absolute stressful and despairing moments during soul clearing in which you’re grappling at the external environment because some shit you don’t need (but thought you needed) is being taken from you. It’s almost primitive behavior in which you fight so hard to rationalize this need to stay in a cave as the water is raising higher…knowing you can’t swim. 
That’s that system fragmentation I often talk about.



You don’t want to entertain the thought of leaving…not to find safer ground…but JUST THE THOUGHT OF NOT KNOWING IF THERE *IS* SAFER GROUND. This is evidence that you are still in your own mind, to NOT THINK AND KNOW THAT WHERE YOU ARE, CAN AND WILL KILL YOU. If you don’t know and don’t want to let go–get out–while you can WALK. 
This ain’t no bag of cookies and makeup. This is sweat and swear work!



SOUL CLEARING will pull you OUT your own mind and uncover the FIRST mind. It is not a new mind..it is the FIRST thought and it will reshape your mind back into and of itself. So not only will you be removed from the cave, there is a twinkling moment (I call it the voice/hand of god), in which you will find yourself in a completely different location. 
This process will happen several times throughout your lifetime. 



This is my third wave…but I’ve done multiple simulations…I swear I’m going to “drown”…but my follow through is getting better. One time I just kept falling and was reaching for anything…but there was nothingness closing in…then it became so cold…there was some fear…I couldn’t speak…so I spoke in my mind to be released…and I felt the whishing of being pulled up. Yeah…I wasn’t so sure about that one…that wasn’t me. 
So anyway…what’s the purpose of it all…? 



I wish I knew..but if you have to go to school you may as well learn the lessons…and be damn good at them!
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I feel so good this morning….I was guiding all night. A thing about being interdimensional is…not every great or good (and certainly we don’t want the bad ones) “dream” is meant to be manifested onto the third dimension. There are aspects of ourselves that the current frequencies on external earth cannot and do not relate to, understand, or appreciate. Even sharing stories of our experiences sound “unbelievable”. They call it alien. Meanwhile we are “requested” to work in other dimensions. Interdimensinal workers, universal workers, dream workers, several names are called by.

The irony is humans ask God for help…BUT because help does not show up in saviour suits, they think help does not arrive. We can help ourselves and each other…but the thinking is “we look too much alike, how can you help me and we’re in the same place. Only certain people have the RIGHT to help me.” Whoa.

We are different titles in different frequencies (worlds)…multiple aspects of ourselves living and being concurrent to our present consciousness. Past present and future. External earth is no different, requests/prayers/desires are made…humans do not follow through however. They find other things to compensate for lack of something else. Earth is a difficult project..truthfully speaking. A lot of us feel that way.

If you have a “dream” and you remember it when you awaken from your sleep and you think it’ll be uplifting to self and/or others…and you have the tools to make it BEcome truth in 3D…do it! But not all “dreams” are meant to manifest into your current conscious world.

And it doesn’t have to be a grand scheme; I saw some gorgeous vivid blue skies and waters in other worlds. I search for the blue via cloth in stores and could not find such a color. So I went to the fabric store and found cloth a close to the heaven blue I could see. I made curtains…so I can wake up in “heaven or haven”. Simple changes that bring about upliftment in our spirits and beings and that closely match our spirit home worlds.

Some beings come from warring worlds…and they brought it here with them…and continue to manifest more of themselves. Unfortunately. BUT it’s a part of the program…many of us try to bypass those parts without getting caught up in them.

In some instances we experience dejavu. This is because there are traits that run across every aspect of ourselves…who we are. That famous line, “It runs in my blood (ancestral blood).” is true. The dejavu helps us to keep in close to our true blood as universally possible. For instance, a Seer. A Seer has always been, IS, and will be a Seer.

In 5th dimension frequencies and above the Seer is consciously in his/her role. In 4th and higher 3rd dimension frequencies (right above the earth), the Seer is semi-conscious or unconscious in his/her role…until they tune into their higher selves (or are tuned into)via meditation and/sleep states/quickening.

The more dejavu we have, the closer we are to our truth. In the experience of the dejavu..we have the ability to change a path…from where we are to where we’re suppose to be. It’s like switching the rail over to a different track..so the train can change routes. The timelines are the tracks and you are the train. Make stops along the way…tune up…bring into your life what benefits the whole…let go of dead weight…know your purpose…or develop one, or two.

In order for the dejavu switch to happen, the person has to be aware of both timelines…where you are and a short glimpse of where you’re suppose to be. Some persons are sensitive to portal locations, and are more likely to “run into themselves” when in vicinity of portals. We mainly use dejavu for corrective work…though some call it a “second chance”.

The fact that we have to “force” ourselves to go to one extreme to get away from another(usually positive to get away from negative) is a reality of BEing human. However because humans must always put a word to a BEing or feeling or emotion….going from one emotional extreme to another is considered “Bi-polar”. Which is also considered a problem of the psyche(mind). I can agree going from one pole to another can be called BI-polar. However I have to touch the so-called “mind disorder” part.

Human concepts of nature’s (perceived) dualities are female/male, life/death, healthy/sick, body/spirit, light/dark, white/black, energy/mass, above/below, in/out, love/hate, good/evil, hot/cold.

Are such mentioned above not absolute, or at least extreme opposites?

Often we hear some people say they’re “good” and that’s it. Ask them what makes them good and they’ll point out evil beings. Or tell so-called “evil” people that they’re evil and they’ll tell you they’re the best thing that happened since sliced bread…because everyone else is being “fake”.

Why do we have to pretend to be happy when we’re feeling depressed (which is supposedly a range of feelings outside of happiness)?

Why can’t we figure out what is depressing us and work our way back to happiness, or at least, balanced contentment?

Life demands (work, family, relationships, friends) donot give us a chance to dwell on our individual dis-eases and wellnesses. So instead of addressing why we might be angry or sad about something…we “suck it up” and put on a surface smile…sometimes a whole act.

And we do put on a “good” act for so long amount of time…until we either breakdown or secretly indulge in vices, or even go deeper into depressive states. I’d say the more we pretend, the deeper or more severe our depression.

All humans are bi-polar. All humans go from one extreme BEing to the opposite BEing. Very few give themselves the opportunity to examine their internal feelings and emotions. So really are they BEing true on the surface?

Humans fear the very beings they judge…and they judge what they fear. They’re afraid someone/s will look upon them as “crazy” if they should express any feeling or emotion other than extremely happy.

To pretend to be one way as a dual being can cause mind disorders of soughts….and possibly manifest into unhealthy unbalanced states of beings.

Whereas, in a bi-polar person when you feel good(positive) you acknowledge your feelings and dwell in being and doing things in a state of a highly active and sunny disposition. And when you feel bad(negative) you acknowledge your feelings and dwell in being and doing things in a depressed slowed state.

And because the “average” person is actually unbalanced and/or pretentious, seeing someone smile (which does not reflect the unbalanced persons current state) brings the unbalanced person to ask a question, “What’s wrong with you, why are you smiling?” Then seeing that same person another time in an angry state, the unbalanced person immediately says, “He/she crazy! He/she must be bi-polar! They was just happy the other day!” (As if its a bad thing).

Does going out on a shopping spree with a smile on your face mean you’re bipolar? Or happily shopping? Or do you just like shopping? Are rich people bipolar for buying expensive things?

Does laying in your bed crying mean you’re bipolar? Or crying through your feelings while laying in your bed? Does sitting in a park and crying make you less or more bipolar? Or would it make others uncomfortable to see you crying?

Does having sex with different people mean you’re bipolar? Or does it mean you may be freely living? Or promiscuous? Or single so you can do what you want? Or just nasty?

Does yelling and cursing mean you’re bipolar? Or that you’re angry? Are you feeling misunderstood? Having difficulty expressing in higher way?

Does being very happy yesterday then very sad today mean you’re bipolar? Or could situations, circumstances, conditions have changed for you in that amount of time? Or Could you be ok with expressing your feelings and be done with them and move on?

I can go into weather, Earth, universe…and point out various aspects of polarity systems. But I’ll stop here for now…and keep it the mind. For now.

Feel free to ask question, critique, ASSIST, give clarity to your knowledge….your experience helps. 6/25/14 11:11pm

Human BEings that believe that the third dimension is the only dimension suffer from the illusion of separation from Spirit. Their senses cannot detect any thing beyond physical matter…Spirit is beyond physical.

I say “suffer” because until one experiences their awakened spirit…they wear a false hood of Bliss. The hood is often called “Ignorance”. If you are ignoring truth on purpose, by staying in a false sense of bliss…imagine what true bliss IS! You cannot…because you are ignorant…by choice.

We cannot be one with others if we are not one with Spirit. And if we are not one with Spirit, then 3D is all we think. Spirit has the ethereal ability to flow in and through all of life. We have the ability to awaken others by simply sharing our own experiences. The clearing work however, is to be done by each of us individually. Often people are deterred by the thought of how much denseness they have to clear within themselves…I for one can say, I was not as evil or damned as others judged me to be. I will soon describe some of what clearing work is…in specific BEings.

Spirit is not confined to the flesh, the material plane. Even being in such a dense dimension, speaking externally, we experience beauty. And because we do, then we know behind the veil is LOVE–an all loving uni-verse.

Aside from people who initiate themselves into mystery schools from raw desire states of beings, there are many people who ingest psyche substances who speak of patterns and colors beyond describable words…they FEEL a “beautiful universe…a loving universe as a ONE.”

Though ingesting substances (which comes with its own set of drawbacks) causes a temporary “trip”, nevertheless those users’ experiences are valid, in a sense.

Aftermath

I had a “dream” in the night where me and some people showed up in some place that looked like an institution and then people started dying in the building…it turned into some kind of traphouse and we had to avoid being killed. I kept trying to help people but they were frozen in fear or would run off in some other direction. Only I and another person made it out..but he wouldn’t step over the bar that had begun to come out of the ground…I saw a green truck in front of me..it had metal boxes inside..I was going to open one but something told me stay away…and then we looked up and there appeared a group of people atop a floating building (ship?). A woman pointed for us to look behind us….and I turned around…all I saw was a city burning. She said because people battled each other instead of working together, they were all lost. I was beamed onto the ship(?) with the people and we were in a town. I had to use the bathroom and entered what looked like a dunkin donuts and there was a big water pool area where some people had just had a party like them TV pool parties. I felt slighty funny in my spine and I asked a women if we were on Earth…she asked me where do you think you are I asked her again and she patted my shoulder smiled and told me to enjoy and walked off. 6/22/14